Mom's Quote of the Day

My mom almost never missed a thing. And so is the case for now. Just minutes ago she said, "Dir, kehidupan kau kok gak karuan ya?" (Dir, i see your life is messed up, isn't it?). Without hesitation i replied "Yes". Just this morning before i took a bath, that exact thing came up to my mind: my current life is messed up. My time is messed up. My schedule is messed up. Me myself personally is messed up. And i'm sick of it. To make it worse, i don't know what's wrong and how to fix. Ah, that's the only way :-). Dunno when :D.

Very Best Love Song :-D

يا من هواه أعزه وأذلنـــي
كيف السبيل إلى وصالـك دلني؟

Wahai cinta, yang dengannya membuatku hina dan membuatnya mulia
Katakan padaku bagaimana jalanku untuk dapat mendekat kepadamu

تركتني حيران صبّا هائمــا
أرعى النجوم وأنت في نوم هني

kau tinggalkan aku dalam tangis dan kesusahan
Kupandangi bintang-bintang sedangkan kau terlelap dalam tidur yang nyaman

جاد الزمان وأنت ما واصلتني
يا باخلاَ بالوصل أنت قتلتنـي

Berlalulah waktu demi waktu dan engkau tidak menemuiku
Duhai engkau yang pelit menjumpa, sungguh engkau membunuhku dengan cinta ini

ولأقعدن على الطريق فأشتكي
في زي مظلوم وأنت ظلمتنـي

Aku akan berjalan dan berseru di jalan-jalan
Karena aku adalah orang yang terdholimi dan engkau mendholimiku

ولأشكينك عند سلطان الهوى
ليعذبنك مثل ما عذبـتـنــي

dan aku akan mengadukanmu pada Raja pemilik segala cinta
Supaya engkau merasakan adzab seperti yang engkau akibatkan padaku

ولأدعين عليك في جنح الدجى
فعساك تبلى مثل ما أبليتنـي

Dan aku akan berdoa di kegelapan malam
Supaya engkau ditimpa bala’ seperti yang engkau akibatkan padaku

Sebagian syair Ya Man Hawa dengan terjemahan bebas. harap maklum kalau ada kesalahan dan harap diralat :-)

Holiday Sweet Holiday

If any of you ask me "How's life??" I'll simply answer "Great!!" because it truly what i feel about life, mainly starting from January 25 until now. After a nice "Makrab" with HMTK, the holiday starts. And i can't expect a better time for it to come after a tiring first semester running a new life as a college student. It has been a "roller-coaster" semester i think. It started with MOS in Ramadhan which successfully make me ill for 3 days, then with the whole lecturers and assignments, organizational activities (though it's very few for me), and it ended with my sister's marriage and the accident happened just a month before that marriage. Wonderful. I got soooooooooo many things in this new life surely. And most importantly, i love it. My other part of life (i mean other than campus and those stuffs) also run excitingly. Life is never flat; absolutely true. Ah, all in all i once again would like to say: life is excitingly wonderful :D.

Okay, back to the holiday talk. Actually, my holiday started even before mid-January, although it's not officially and fully a holiday. Some subjects were done already , therefore no more need to take the lecture; part-time holiday. Furthermore, in mid-January i went to Bandung for Indonesian Varsities English Debate (IVED) in which i have an early holiday (another interesting yet wonderful experience in this half-year term). Just 2 days at home after IVED, off to Tawangmangu for makrab. Exhausted, yes; but simply enjoyable. Aaaannndddd it's OFFICIALLY holiday :D. It's another nowhere-to-go holiday, but i already get used to it since mostly i spend my holiday this way. What i enjoy most is finally I'm free again. Just in case any of you forgotten, i haven't rode my motorcycle for over a month after that accident. Once i got the chance, i grab it with both hand. But it's not merely wandering around the city aimlessly burning the decreasing fossil fuel without any reason, i did it with purpose. I helped people a lot this holiday, and i badly missed that very much when i'm on my "disable" period. I set up someone's internet connection from choosing the modem until installing the firefox, go to relatives' houses, take my mom anywhere she wants, do what my dad asked, go to uncle's house and take part in his recording process, play games with my cousins there, and many more. simply love it. if only everyday in my life can be spent this way. huahahahahaha..

PS: haven't heard the update, but i'm currently anxious of someone's health condition. Get well soon. be praying for you day and night.

Raaanddddoooommmmm

There are things that can't be remedied; unlike exams. Even if you have to wait for another year, you'll have your chance. But in most cases, you can't simply remedy something: words that you say, steps that you take, and time that you spend. Once taken, no backward, no revision, no undo button and no remedy.

So whenever you say a word or act or do something, THINK logically and carefully about what the consequences going to be. Whether you will make someone upset, angry, disappointed or more. If it is so, you'd better not to do it. Erasing pain is not as easy as curing infections.

Rich and Poor

One day i attend a "pengajian (dunno the term) in the mosque next to my house. I remember the speaker said "Seburuk2 orang miskin adalah orang miskin yang mengetuk pintu untuk meminta. Seburuk2 orang kaya adalah orang kaya yang pintunya perlu diketuk agar keluar hartanya." I can't exactly say that the words come from the Prophet directly (a hadits) or it's one of his followers (shohabat) or the Ulama. but it's certainly coming from one of them. At that time, after listening to the explanation from the speaker i just think "oh, that's right. very true". But now, i found the reason why. In my personal opinion, the point of the words are the mentality of the rich and the poor people regarding to their condition. we'll take a closer look up next.

The idea of this note comes up after watching Metro TV showing hundreds of people bursting into a mosque -somewhere i forgot- shouting, pushing, stepping on each other, breaking the fence; just to get a plastic bag of meat (it won't weigh more than half kilo). What we can see is that there exactly NO character of humanity among people; once again for a plastic bag of meat. When a Hyena find it's prey, they will do exactly the same to what the people out there do.

Another example; still fresh in our mind the tragedy in Pasuruan caused by similar situation in which people rumbled each other to get Rp 25.000. It caused 21 lives. A price tag of "Rp 25.000" were slapped in 21 lives of our brother. Another example of a wild and non-human behavior.

Whose mistake? Poor people because they are poor? Government because they can't distribute the prosperity? Rich people because they are (so-called) sharing their wealth? None of them.

It's pathetic if a poor people living in a poor condition also poor mentally. If it's for an urgent need (operation, accident, giving birth, etc) then they need to have their pride not to ask and beg. Have their willing to solve it by doing anything but to beg for people's generosity and kind heart. They need to be strong and RESPECT THEMSELVES. They need to give a RESPECT for themselves as a HUMAN BEING. Behave as a human, think as a human, have pride as a human, and live as a human. For their own sake. Eating a meet is not a must; buying new clothes for 'Id is not a must; having a cellphone is not a must (reality: beggars DO have cellphones, and they beg). So, what kind of mental deficiency which make people sacrifice their pride and self-esteem just to get those short-term satisfaction and happiness? Life is not easy; i know it. Money is not everything but everything needs money; agreed. Do everything, sacrifice everything even your life to get some money?? Negative. One of my favorite quote taken from a Tasikmadu employee "Kalo sudah lewat kerongkongan, sate dan singkong akan sama rasanya." It can be implied not just for foods. How long will you admire your new dress, shoes, necklace, etc in front of the mirror?? not that long. Dunno to whom i should speak, but this word is aimed towards those who begs and knocking doors for coins for unimportant and not urgent things: Please, respect yourself. For your own sake.

Rich people living in their palaces with their mercedeses and expensive clothes but closing the eye from their surrounding is the worst person stepping on the earth. Let's take an example. Sayyid Ali Zainal Abidin, son of Husin, grandson of Muhammad SAW, every night roams around Medina carrying wheat on HIS OWN shoulder to be given to poor people in the town. Every night without a single house missed. No one knows about it except his storehouse guard. When he died and no more wheat found in front of houses, people then find out that it's Sayyid Ali who did it every night. That's an example for every rich people to do. For the rich people: Open your eye to your surrounding. Have feeling towards people next to you, in front of you and anywhere near your place. You're afraid of getting poor? Sharing your wealth won't make you poor. You are making a trade to the God; the Richest of all. He won't let His companion down. It's very kind of you if you welcome every people who come to your house and need your help. But you're not different to a baby -waiting to be fed. Move on! Share your wealth! And be socially aware.

Graduate? Work? Life?

Yesterday i woke up a little bit late in the morning. My class will start at 8 and i opened my eyes at 7.15. So i don't have too much time preparing both mind and body to go to campus and face PHYSICS at that time. After a quick bath (but still clean and clear. haha) i ran my motorbike while my brain is updating and loading information and data.

The arc of "Universitas Sebelas Maret" hung above my head welcoming everyone passing by with pride. It was a very crowded morning with a lot of motorbikes walking slowly through the security. I wondered "What's on earth? It's unusually this crowded". 50 meters forward i found out the answer; it's GRADUATION time.

Okay, let's skip the crowds and parking lots. My mind is loaded and ready to work. The first thing came up to my mind is about the graduation. Hundreds of people once called "Mahasiswa" is now called "sarjana". Their family came along to the campus; putting on make-ups, wearing torturing skirts called Kebaya completed with a huge and heavy Sanggul, preparing foods, photos, taking their babies and children packed with toys and candies, waiting for hours, just to celebrate that short change of status. Parents are proud with their Graduate-Boy. Their millions of investment will shortly pay back. With a short whip of the ribbon on the hat, 4 years (or more) effort and struggles are finally acknowledged. They're on the doorstep of "a better future". It goes with a pile of dream that will follow.

If the question is "What to do after graduation?" then the answer will be "work, work and work. then get married. hahaha.." is it that simple? Can be yes but mostly no. Later on that day less than 24 hours, i read a newspaper and find an interesting title "Jumlah Pengangguran Bergelar Sarjana Meningkat". The discussion can be brought to how incapable the government to provide job and etc, but that's not the menu for now. 14,3% of graduated undergraduates are still jobless. Albeit their scores and whereabouts or their universities, it's still a stunning figure. And something that burden every mind of a "sarjana"-going-to-be.

My sister is a bachelor of law (Sarjana Hukum). When she graduated her friends came along and take pictures. One of them congratulated my sister and said "Well,you've been through a lot of difficult things in your study to obtain the bachelor degree. But later on you will find that finding a job is a lot more difficult". Quote of the week everyone?

Well, life is a hyper-complicated thing to be talked. But we know something that is called "causal relation". So if you do something, then the result or the outcome will also goes inline with what you do. If we study and graduate from university, then the path to success is up ahead. We do what we have to do; work the work. But one thing is certain, FATE determines everything. My mom (the most philosophical person i ever met) told me "Pray to God, ask for a good fate. Then do what you have to do.". So, no need to be afraid of the threat to be the part of the 14.3%. Let's study, let's go to schools, universities, colleges, etc. Overall, let God do what He does best.

A no-aim Post

Well, i've been extremely busy lately because of my sister's marriage. So i almost have no time to sit for hours and thinking about what to write here in my blog. But nooooowwwww, it's all done and dusted. My sis has moved to her new house with her husband, my room is back to it's usual function (my room is a bedroom-cum-storage), and my house is slowly back to it's normal condition with the quiet morning and everything. I'm in a great mood to post something but my mind is stuck on my sis' marriage and i'm waiting for the pictures to make a writing about it. So, it's enough for now. just to fulfill my thirst :D.

PS: my life theme-song for now: Ghanneeli Shuwayya-Shuwayya by Umm Kaltsum :D